Getting Married/Getting Back on Track/Silence

First things first:
Guess who's getting MARRIED?! *jumps up and down* ME ME ME! PJ proposed to me on Christmas!! More to come on that subject, but I have something on my heart I want to share...

Things have been kind of here and there for the past few weeks. I haven't been doing my devotionals, and because of either snow or being out of town I also haven't been at church. The first thing that made me realize I need to get my behind back on track was a couple of weeks or so ago when PJ and I were eating lunch. I don't know what sparked it, but out of nowhere he looked at me and asked, "Have you been doing your devotionals?" I did a kind of timid looking face and admitted that no, I hadn't. "Well...you need to get on that." Since he doesn't do devotionals I wasn't sure why it seemed like such a big deal until I asked why. "Doing them made you happy, and I want you to be happy." He was right, as he almost always is. So that's what I'm starting with as soon as we can get back to the house (we were having electrical issues so we stayed at a friend's house tonight). Back to devotionals and *thank God* back to church. I've missed church, I haven't been skipping it because of wanting to. I've been skipping it because I've not been anywhere I could go. For two Sundays we were snowed into our house, and then we were with his family in Jacksonville and I was just so engrossed in being with family that I didn't go. Plus I found out some unsettling things about the church we attended the last time we were there...but that's not something I need to go into right now.

Anyways so tomorrow it's back to devotionals. I've also been praying about the silence I'm feeling I need in my life. So far my plan is that January 3rd through January 8th I will be taking my silent time. That is from a Monday until a Saturday. Here will be the exceptions to the silence:

1 - I can speak while out job hunting, because I really need to find work.

2 - I can speak with my fiancée for one hour during the morning, and one hour at night, this has a condition of if something is extremely important that needs to be discussed.

3 - I will not be using the internet *or* answering the phone/text messages. The exception is if the number that is calling is one I don't recognize and therefore may be something related to getting a job. I haven't decided yet, but I may allow myself to check voicemails once at night...I'm still praying over that one.

4 - I may or may not also be choosing to not watch any TV/movies, and instead opt to read. I'm leaning towards doing this (no TV), another one I'm praying about.

I think that's about it. I'm still praying about it and will be up until the time it begins. I can't believe I'm doing this, and I've had two people say so far that basically they don't think I'm going to be able to do it. But that's half of the point, doing something that's hard and working my way through it. The other half is learning to enjoy the silence (not always feel a need to fill it), learning to enjoy time without technology, and having time with God.

Whew.

So next post, hopefully tomorrow...if I'm around a computer, will be some more details about my very recent engagement (^_^).

Later folks!!!

Small things are just as awesome.

God always provides all that I need, and lots of what I want.  I was so worried about finances, but I've done the math and we're going to be fine.  That includes tithing, bills, rent, car payment, insurance payment, gas to get the kids, etc.  Thank God for providing, and that's just with me UNDERESTIMATING my pay (^_^).  Anyways God came through on something small today.  Maybe it was a coincidence, maybe not, but I'm just going to thank God either way.  We've had major issues with our computer.  Major.  Everytime we get it fixed within two days we get the blue screen of death and aren't able to get Windows to start again.  We've had to get it fixed three or four times now.  Anyways so we got the blue screen of death earlier...again.  I was obviously not too happy about seeing it again, but I trusted.  I prayed and said that I knew I had been behind on devotionals and my blog and that I needed the computer to be able to write that blog and share my views on God.  Then I remembered a sermon I heard about how powerful words are...positive as well as negative.  So I breathed in, calmed down, and wrote "I WILL WORK" on a post-it note and stuck it to the screen and kept on praying.

And for the first time...this computer recovered from blue screen syndrome.  So thanks to that, I'm able to update you guys :).  I'm not writing as much as I'd like, but I'm also at work and need to be you know...working.